i haven’t been avoiding you – it’s just that i’ve been really busy.  and napping too.  i think that’s allowed right?  at least that’s what people keep telling me.  i feel like a huge slacker every time i nap.  but i also feel about a kabillion times better post snooze so if it’s okay i’m going to keep it up for now.

i’ve been more busy than usual because i’ve taken on my hours at my secret job.  it’s a good thing really – making a little moolah (just a little), keeping my mind active, getting me off my couch for a few hours each and every day.  i enjoy the work and the fact that i can work from home (or from a coffee shop – or from LA) is basically the best thing that has ever happened to me.  and when i say best thing that ever happened to me i don’t really mean best thing ever, i just mean, it’s a nice change.  especially with this babe on the way – it’s nice to slow down a bit.  because my life before was anything but slow.

i’ve had a lot of questions in my personal life about if i quit my DREAM JOB so that i could get pregnant.  the answer is no.  i quit my job because it was not the right job for me at this point in m life.  my job wasn’t making me happy (duh) but that wasn’t totally it either.  before EDDIE got sick i had completely rationalized sticking it out one more year.  sucking it up, not crying under my desk, and not having a kid (because let me tell you – the DREAM JOB and kid were not a match made in heaven…more like THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN PURE HELL!!).  once EDDIE got sick he spelled things out for me pretty clearly – “your coworkers are border line abusive, your NANI needs you, quit your job and have a baby.”  i spent a month or so thinking it over and decided to quit – it was just a matter of when.  again, i felt like i should stick it out through the summer and then quit come august.  after all, summer was the fun part…or was it?!  there were parts of summer that were great – singing modeh ani every morning, watching asian children fall in love with shabbat, hiring a killer staff and making life long friends…but summer also sucked ass.  i don’t think i took a deep breath between april and august, i didn’t sleep, didn’t eat and i didn’t see ABN.  not a great way to prep for a baby.  so together, after a raucous new year’s eve celebration that consisted of scrabble and the lights out by 10:30, ABN and i decided together that it was time to walk away – immediately.  i hoped by leaving right away i was leaving them in a place to find a great replacement way before summer.  and i knew i would be able to begin traveling down to LA and sitting with NANI on her pink couch.  and of course it meant we could now try to get pregnant – just never imagined it could possibly happen so quickly.

so there you go, the complete story.  i feel good because i feel like i was honest with my coworkers from the beginning.  i also took care of myself which i’m not totally apt to do. and i’m heading to LA for a week on monday which would have been IMPOSSIBLE while working at the DREAM JOB.

in other news, as we were getting into bed last night i caught the last few minutes of the play-off game.  now i’m not really a professional basketball fan (go BRUINS) but the inner fan came out.  ABN had to step back.  he never knows what to do with me when i clap wildly and yell at the screen.  my future kid may not be the BIGGEST sports fan, but for basketball, the kid is covered!