i’m currently sitting on my red couch (i feel like begin almost every post the same way) , wrapped up in my snuggie, drinking massive amounts hot water, lemon and honey.  i’m not sick.  but i’m feeling on the icksa side of well and i still have two more weeks to go and trying to do it at less than 100% would be no kinds of good.

another week has come and gone and with that we’ve had a lot of pants wetting (many repeat offenders), the best and most ruach (spirit) filled mifcad (morning circle) of the summer, we’ve made candy sushi and oh had a purim carnival in july – because why the hell not.  i ended up going out for a quick drink on thursday night with some of my staff and while out we got to talking about why i haven’t been as bubbly as usual.  it was hard to hear that they had noticed – especially since i spend a lot of time telling the counselors that they can’t let the stress of camp or their real lives effect the work that they do with the kids.  seems like i haven’t been the best example.  which, of course, made me anxious.  but.  it’s a balance.  because sometimes i turn the bubble on and its totally fake and not real and that’s not good for anyone either.

so i went home and i thought about it.  and then i  called all the counselors into a circle and i set the scene: my agitation and frustration and less bubbly attitude has nothing to do with them (and nothing to do with ABN – as if!).  it’s been a stressful summer and for the last week i’ve let the stress get to me.  but its also been a killer summer and my staff has been phenomenal (more specifics in a future post) and they’ve changed the lives of each and every kid that they are working with.  and that’s what camp is about.  and that’s what makes me bubbly…for reals.

in the mean time, borrowed from MEL at JUST FINE AND DANDY:

AS OF LATELY

Trying to get healthy before i get full blown sick

Regretting that my stress might have effected my camper’s and staff experience

Craving a turkey sandwich – which i just sent ABN to go and buy…sometimes its the little things

Hoping my left tonsil shrinks quickly

Longing for a vacation, that lasts for more than 24 hours

Needing to do payroll

Listening to the SAVAGE LOVE PODCAST

Wishing camp didn’t have to end – wait?  what?  it’s true!

Looking forward to reading the PEOPLE MAGAZINE with the 20th anniversary of SAVED BY THE BELL

Working on painting my nails

and now, i’ve got to pee…again